Finding God As An Atheist Trapped in Spirituality!

I feel there is a confusion that must be addressed to progress humanities growth.
The confusion and misinterpretation of the word “God”.
We connect this triggering word too
religion and even spirituality. That’s why I once physically felt sick using the word, and would never enter a church. It brought up such rage and judgement in me. I concluded to use the word God or believe in God. I must be religious, in a cult or simply nuts.

However now I feel it’s our disconnection to our Divine creator and the misunderstanding of the word God…that is why we are in such a state in our World, living so far out of love. We have let dark Spirits influence us for thousands of years. The world is run from violence, cruelty, lies, greed, anger, lust, jealousy, judgement, consumerism, over indulgence, power, and mismanaged. We live outside our means as islands not in community. Most importantly not in love, from love and even understand what true love is. We think we know what love is. I’ve learned recently I thought I did. However I did not. I am in my infancy to understanding the faith, gravitas and meaning of love.
Since I have made peace with the word God and learnt it’s origins. I have started a relationship with God and it has started to shift my life. My relationships and my reality.

I had to break down my triggers with the word and even saying “I have a relationship with God”. To see my own abandonment of Divines Love.
The word God once came from an Old English word, which itself is derived from the Proto-Germanic *ǥuđán, ghut. Which means “The good is invoked within”. The word arose in the proto-Germanic era, which would place it around 500 BCE, at the start of the Iron Age. So the word “God” is about 2,500 years old. Jesus in that time of a strong religious hold on the people he tried to free people from… did not use the word God they used… ‘Yahweh’ which roughly translates to ‘being good’.
God does not mean religion. Nor is it exclusive to religion. In fact religion is in many cases far from loving and good. It is used to invoke control, power and fear. And justify very unloving practices. As can some spiritual beliefs be.

Nor is the word God relating to a “person”… more an almightily Soul, our creator mother father. A path to follow by following his ways. To be a good loving kind truthful person while alive, and to live a life of Divine Love. Then when in Spirit form continue that relationship to continue you as the Souls, growth. God is an entity in the highest of Dimensions that is a great advance Soul of completion who is everything and can be within everyone who chooses. We can become at-one with him through our faith and actions in alignment to Divine Love. Through our understanding we are a Soul not anything else. That this in the start of our journey here on Earth.

Religion is a set of rules, regulations, and rituals created by humans influences by dark Spirts, who both want control over human growth, and too control the Spirit World from growth. Religion has aways been about corruption, greed of wealth and resources, politics and diverseness…. and the tool for power over others. Keeping people believing God punishes and judges. That we are depraved, sinful, and subservient. Fearing his wrath. Divisiveness and judgement against other religions. Shame on those who no don’t follow that religion. Religions are based on a misinterpretation of Jesus and great philosophers true channeled teachings from God. Swayed and twisted and rewritten to the gains of a select elite few.
These dark spirits that influence the select few… have us living in lust, fear, diverseness, in a lack of faith and inner connection to the Divine and under their control. All brainwashing started with religion for thousands of years. Now they still use religion, even atheism and science…however it’s now also through media, social media, Hollywood, entertainment, celebrities, music, gaming and TV.
And through spirituality…

Spirituality however, is seen as a way of life, and often used to free one from religion or atheism. But it can also be restrictive in true faith too. Also dogmatic and controlling. And also a misunderstanding of God the entity, misinterpreting God as simply an energy within us all, not our Creator a great Soul we can become at-one with through living a loving path. Some teachings of spirituality is a way that Dark Spirits can slow humanities growth, deceive us and not receive the true wisdom of the universe. Not allowing for higher Souls growth through the higher spheres (dimensions). Religions and often spiritual beliefs can cap our Souls growth.

Therefore not allowing true Divine Love to accelerate our Souls growth.
Why? Because so many Spiritual ways are still UNLOVING. Keeping us on a hamster wheel of fixing ourselves and others, solving from the 3D perspective and blaming others for our traumas. Justifying bad unloving actions in the name of free will. Thinking we are all God so thus justifying unloving actions without radical responsibility. Seeking outside of self. Disconnecting from God as our Creator. Ripping ourselves apart, constantly not enough… seeking to be better, and loosing our individuality in the misinterpretation of Oneness. A misinterpretation of body ~soul ~ spirit. Rather than a Soul with a spirt body and a temporary physical body… all connected to our great Spirit God and Divinity.

Although we feel they are loving practices or pure Light, as I did. We can use them to justify unloving practices, as I did. So many false Light or New Age spiritual practices keep us away from the truth of Our Creator, and the truths of the universe. Keeping us from radical responsibility to stand up and change the world… starting with living from PURE TRUE DIVINE LOVE. In Gods absolute truth.

God to me means living a loving, kind, truthful, humble path of trying each day not in inflict harm, violence and cruelty on another. To not project my emotions and unmet needs on to others. To not sacrifice myself or act unloving to self. To take ownership of my emotions and to feel truly my blocks/pains/trauma/birth traumas/patterns/circuits/ to release unloving ways. To become ‘at-one’ and live with Gods Universal Laws.

I am far from that, however I strive for this each day. Through the barometer of ‘Is that loving?’ ‘Is that love?’ ‘Am I acting from love?’ ‘How is my unloving actions a projection onto another?’

When I am not true love. I restore and try to change that through radical ownership. This is Soul growth for the betterment for humanity and my family.
That is my journey with myself. Not with a cult or religion or movement or set of rules. Although the only rule “Law” is of Divine Love.
My relationship with God. An entity that is complete in Love and Soul union hence him/her. That as soon as I connected too and opened up to receive her love. I understood my path ahead. My relationship grows as I feel his love and live more and more from her example.

Not a man in the sky, not a judging, punishing, scorning, righteous creation of religion and dark forces we retract from and fear, or believe we can never become connected with because we are not good enough, not sinless enough in his eyes.
God is our Creator Mother ~ Father who created a path back to her, which is to live a loving true life, in harmony with Nature’s Laws. In harmony with Universal Laws. To feel our Soul and to live through our Soulful Self removing the barrage of pain, trauma, density and blocks that prevents that. To let love in, have faith in a higher path ahead of us. Live from truth and humility. To pass on Divine wisdom and truth to others. To live in love for all of our Brothers and Sisters and all beings and creatures. Without harming another.

To work on our triggers and lack of faith around the word and our path of spirituality.

The word Spirituality means to have recognition of a feeling or sense or belief that there is something greater than self as a physical body. Something more to being human than sensory experiences, and that the greater whole of which we are apart of, is cosmic and divine in nature. An opening of the heart is an essential aspect of true spirituality and a path to God.

Learn more about Divine Truth from AJ’s website and youtube channel.

With Love Hannah x x

All Life Is Essential & Needed & A Gift From God

Abortion: Read this with an awareness of triggers mean there are emotions to be felt and released.

Abortion pro or against? Is it that simple?

With the recent news around abortion. I believe, this like so many big topics, are here to teach us to go within to find true unconditional love, a brilliant opportunity to be triggered to heal our own wounds, process old pains and clear out emotions that are trapped. To improve Soul Condition.

Not that there is a right and wrong egotistical facade argument to “win”
However I’d like to bring in the perspective from a Soul growth level on this topic.

A child born and adopted, is better for the child’s Soul growth and the parents Soul, by giving the child away. Vs murder (look up the definition of this word) of the child and the child’s Free Will removed…as that’s hard for the Soul to process in the Spirit World without an experience on Earth. And the parents Soul as murderers to process, especially if the parents do not recognise taken life as murder. Adoption of the child means they all get to process emotions and the child hopefully gets to live a good life with parents who love them. Free Will for the child. Even if the child gets moved around the system and never finds loving parents…it’s still easier on a Soul level and the child has Free Will to find its Soulmate and give birth and to find Divine Love, than total rejection and the parents killing them… stopping them coming to Earth (the nursery of Soul growth, and one’s spiritual journey to start learning who they are)

Gods Free Will gives choice, yes. However each choice has an effect on the Souls condition and morality attached, that effects the Souls growth. I have Free Will to rape, murder, abuse and steal. That’s my right! However it will effect my Soul condition, and I will get stuck in lower spheres in-till I repent and restore for those actions that were out of alignment with Divine Love.

To reject a child by passing it to another parent who wants to love that child. Without “ownership” knowing that child was created by God and is a Soul with a physical body, that a parent doesn’t own… just made. (Mothering is an action and choice not just biological). Its easier for that child to find Free Will, heal its wounds and live life. Than it’s parents stopping it’s chance to live and experience all the gifts this Earth school grants…that the spirit world cannot. When people say it’s “my body my choice”, they forget the babies choice who actually choose those parents at that time, through that experience in Divine timing. And they forget Gods gift of Free Will does not mean all choices made will not damage the Soul and your Soul growth. If one cannot love a child one made. Gift the child to someone who can. That is a more loving act in the eyes of God. If any person takes the life of a being…animal or human. They will have to deal with that on a Soul level for themselves and the Soul they inflicted damage onto. Repent, restore and find forgiveness for Self. Of course death here does not mean Soul death as a Soul is immortal, however it does impact the Soul if one is murdered. Or the murderer. Animal death is slightly different as they do not have Souls only spirit bodies. However it still impacts your Soul when actions are Free Will, however not loving.

I personally believe that each Soul chooses to come into form for experiences and the parents law of attraction. So if that’s through rape or into a bad parenting situation or extreme poverty or war or to a teenager. Who’s to say that Soul doesn’t get to experience that and learn… and even create amazing things into the collective co-creation from that. Who’s to say rape victim children don’t go on to be amazing co-creators to our world that are needed. And who are we to stop that…? Perhaps that Soul choose that mother for her own growth or to serve humanity? Maybe that Soul only wanted a short life experience here to test if it were ready through miscarriage or infant death?!

On the flip side, I do not believe in “death”. Only transformation of energy and frequencies shifts in different spheres with dimensions. Nor do I believe anymore in reincarnation. I see how that belief stops so many of us taking radical responsibility for our actions in this life. Or stopping us standing up for others. “Oh in another life I will change that”, “oh another life they will be better off no need to help them”, ….”this Soul will come back again I’m not ready now”
…meaning no need to radically change or do anything or truly do the inner work now, here on earth, in this body! Or to take radical responsibility for Soul damage to self or others. That’s where this debate misses the mark. No one talks about the Soul, the immortal part of us that is effected by our Earthy actions and choices. Once a Soul gets rejected from Earth it cannot incarnate here again. Who are you too take that journey from another. Playing God.

So thus, when the baby gets aborted, for the use of a better word. That Soul then experiences it’s journey in its spirit body form, as an infinite energy as there is no end or death, just evolution and growth of Souls and the collective. I do however, believe everything serves us to grow as individual Souls and the collective growth towards Divine Love. So thus an abortion for one person, could lead on to them for filling amazing things in life and finding their purpose without “said baby” changing their timeline, however they will have to deal with the unloving act towards the child at one stage in their spiritual journey. Or equally that abortion brings such trauma, that leads them to also experiencing profound experiences to awaken them, or guide others to a Divine Love. And I believe if that Soul is here to learn a particular lesson it will learn it no matter how many times it’s sabotaged or mis directed from the ego or collective dark forces… So therefore, It’s an individuals path to themselves and their own path to what is truely loving or not. Not acting from fear, but true Divine Love. How many women who have abortions can say it was true love that made me do this? And it was true love for the Soul I rejected? I question that…perhaps mostly its fear, judgment, pressure. Negative spirit influences. Society pressure.

And this subject like veganism or climate change or any other controversial topic…is the permission slip for the individual to find themselves and their beliefs…and their own resonance with their Souls journey, their remembrance of who they are. A Child of God here too experience and return to the Divine Love path of oneness with God, through the spirit world spheres and dimensions. With time here on Earth or not, that will happen. Whatever your belief they will all eventually lead to Divine wisdoms truth.

The final point I feel is at 17 or 20 I would have had an abortion without truly understanding what I understand now. Without much grief in fact. Just an attachment to the drama for my own gains. I popped the morning after pill a few times not even thinking about when life starts. However if I were faced with that now, it would feel very different to the point I wouldn’t feel able to do it. I believe life starts at conception, in fact thought of conception. Is my younger self wrong? I am right now? No, it’s transformation of Self and my individual needs at the time of continually growing. So my conclusion thus far in my delving into this subject is…there are so many variables however only one a Divine Truth. I believe we are Souls here in physical form having an experience for our growth, we think it’s real yet the Earth part is the most unreal part. Only when we “die” do we truly see ourselves and the true spirit world with its layers of potential growth. Earth is our nursery, the very start of our spiritual journey to oneness with our Creator. Others mirror to us aspects of our own mind and ego and subconscious in reflections and projections giving us an opportunity in that moment to choose love, humility, truth and forgiveness. This serves us to look to our vibration and adjust our course.

So instead of saying “pro life” is right. Or “it’s my body it’s my right”. Ect. Look within. What is this teaching you? Are you triggered and what can that show you? Why so strong a view, is it showing you a trauma to be released ect? How can we all have more compassion and understanding of each other’s realities? How can we inner-stand without reaction. How can we do the emotional inner work. Rather than get caught up in the facade drama outer world.

Can you view it from a Soul level!

I will add that I’ve been shown by my guides, it’s hard for a rejected Soul as they have lots of emotions and it can effect the Souls spirit world journey, not getting to experience the Earth plane (our nursery). However they are met with higher celestial beings to hold them and guide them and ease that pain. Like a spirit world nursery. However the creator intended for each Soul to have Free Will, and to experience Earth…and if ones choice was Earth and these parents rejected them…that must be processed. Therefore making peace with the Soul we lost in miscarriage or abortion or through the morning after pill….is helpful to both our journey and there’s. Send love, ask to hear how they are and explaining your situation and emotions at the time. This can bring such healing to you both. I know I did for the female Soul I miscarriage when I fell pregnant with a Marina Coil inside me (with 99% protection) and when they took it out the baby was aborted at 14 weeks, it had to come out as it was lodged and could have caused infection and would have killed the baby anyway and possibly me, yet pulling it out killed her. I would have kept her if I could, it was such grief that took me years to process, I didn’t know what I know now. I explained this to her and she found peace and progression in her Souls journey. In fact William was being influenced by a female spirit from 2 1/2 years old confusing his own gender (the time I experienced this) and after that, no more influence from her. I feel she was trying to connect with what she missed through Williams body. We all felt more peace after I spoke to her and felt love and forgiveness for self and those involved. William was more confident with who he was. I Expressed I would find her in the spirit world and sleep state and we could be together. That I didn’t reject her consciously. I grieved and keep grieving for any experience that could have hurt another Soul coming through me.

Written with love around this vast subject. Blessings to all 💓

With love Hannah ✨

God’s guidance filtered through me. Sharing my experience & journey shedding my facades & finding the path to truth, divine love & humility. Take what you will. Leave the rest.