Our Story

My clients tell me I should write a book. One day perhaps I will. I feel life has thrown a far bit my way. I grew up in England in a middle class family and we wanted for nothing material, it was on paper a great childhood with love. However I was raised in a family environment that made my personal childhood experience hard, I’ve since forgiven them and send them love daily. Although this experience created large amounts of self hatred, low self esteem and trauma in me, that I have had to work for years to overcome.  My parents bless them, found it difficult to handle my emotional needs as a highly sensitive person, and worked many hours. The tools and knowledge that we have now, coupled with my generations trend of self development and being open with emotions. Has allowed us to parent our children differently. The generation they were from, with the level of deep emotional suppression that was taught to them as children, and my sensitive Soul needs… did not match. They did their best. They have so much pain themselves, as so much is passed on generationally. And until our generation it has not been dealt with. I continue to rebuild our relationship from a broken down place.  I am the circuit breaker in my family, the black sheep, the one who triggers others wounds. As I heal I offer them a path to heal, some bits they take others they cannot. Including validating my experience. Although I do not need that to heal as I see my part in it all and do the work to heal that within me.

I only found out I was Autistic and ADHD when I was 40 in february 2022 and by that time CPTSD too. My childhood and schooling years could have been quite different if i’d know back then. I started smoking at 13 and drinking alcohol, as that’s what teenagers did in the country, especially when we were expected to behave and no one asked if we were coping, which non of us where, some better than others. I was quite estranged from my mother at this point and my brother was my own living hell, and I had learned to mask well. I was raped at 14 by a 30 year old man after my friend and I recklessly got drunk and excepted a lift. This was my first memory of suicidal thoughts starting, not knowing they would be with me most my life. I left home at 15 without finishing my exams and worked very hard in London, in my previous career as a Colour Technician in Londons best Salons. I partied hard and took hard drugs to escape my pain. I brought my first flat at 17 with my parents help and ran my first Salon at 18 working for many narcissist bosses dangling carrots that were never reachable. I went traveling at 22 as i’d been working since I was 15, drinking hard and taking drugs and eating so badly just to survive, I thought there must be more to life. At this point the depression was apart of me. I was overweight as I had been since I was 2. Eczema, gut issues and joint pains.

While I was traveling I met Robin my Soulmate, and we had a few fun years of freedom and self growth…an exhale from my pain. Robin had a challenging upbringing too with lots of trauma. We moved to Melbourne Austrlia in 2005 and brought our beloved dogs, and lived on the beach. Life was great. I left my carer in hairdressing and started to work with gourmet food and learned to be a chef, and started running food businesses, for more narcissist in Melbourne. It took me years to overcome this codependent anxious attachment, narcissist dance I had with people in my working life that mirrored my childhood relationships.  In 2009 we got caught in the Black Saturday fires in Victoria nearly loosing our lives. From the fires we decided to have children, fell pregnant fast and without any experience with children. We had 2 children born with physical and mental disabilities and two horrific births one that nearly killed me. What a shock! life got insane from this point.

I am grateful for the journey I’ve been on, as without embarking on healing the children, I would not have found my true self and this journey of Divine Truth. Nor would I have discovered my own Neural Divergent needs to really find who I was and start the journey of true self love. Also in 2022 Robin was diagnosed with Bipolar 2. All these labels can either cause you to feel defeated and that you have them for life or give you the opportunity to use them as information to help you grow and know your true self. I hope my story inspires you to know even with the hardest of challenges can always improve, health can be returned and life can be created not just survived.

I have always loved food and was raised on a standard crappy junk diet like most in the 80’s. My eating got worst in London on my own, then I remember a switch in my mind went on. I want to eat well! I’d always loved cooking and loved eating and after leaving hairdressing I moved into the organic health food industry. But my journey took a change in direction after the birth of my first son William. I had a great pregnancy and remained fit and active, right up to the day of the birth with no morning sickness and minimum weight gain. But we knew something was wrong straight away when he was born, but we were so tied and bombarded with so much information to see clearly the damage the birth had on his vegans nerve and the D tap vaccine damage. After a year of constant screaming, croup, ear infections, chest infections, wind, reflux, colic and no sleep just surviving day to day and numbing our pain with bad food choices, alcohol and respite escapes, we knew we had to take action. Each vaccination made him worst yet it took us to 4 years old to connect the dots. Those around us reassured us they all were tired and their kids did these things too. But in the pit on my stomach I knew William, my first born was different to the babies around us. We weren’t just normal parenting tired and stressed we were falling apart and severely fatigued and sick. My husband Robin and I have always had a strong, loving relationship, but those early years tested us to the edge and back. We used all our strength and skills to keep our family from breaking and falling in a heap. The support from our family and friends helped us and those who share our battles have been a vital support as they truly know how hard it is to live with Autism Spectrum Disorder (ASD). My parents moved in with us to help and this was invaluable however also challenging to and led to big family bust up. Friends did their best however just did to understand.

We were desperately making changes in our home by removing chemicals and replacing them with “natural’ products and using as many Early Intervention tools and Therapist as we could but they were not really working. After trying many formulas and colic remedies natural and shop brought, I decided because of my dairy allergy as a child that we should take him off dairy. It helped a bit so we researched more and embarked on a gluten free lifestyle as read the two are connected. This combo really made a difference and around his 1^st birthday life calmed a bit and especially after removing all sugars. But he was always different to the other children. He climbed the stairs at 6 months, started walking at 11 months so was a very strong active child and started talking early too. He was however not affectionate and would not like to be held or touched unless on his terms and from birth had screamed and been in aggressive meltdowns almost all day, everyday. He has sensory processing disorder and would stim by banging his head against the wall till it bleed or crash from great heights down on to a hard floor. We lived on egg shells and life was extremely tough, unable to transition form A to B. Robin had to change jobs as financially all the medical bills, supplements and therapist had put us in serious debt and we lost our home and place on the property ladder.

But it soon went down hill again and I started looking at failsafe type diets and learnt about Salicylate’s and Amines and Phenols and all things that blew my mind at the time. I had always fed him organic home cooked foods that I thought to be healthy, but the more I read and saw others journeys the more I realised that was far from what I was doing. At one point he was eating 3 or 4 safe foods and a carrot or tomato was causing him skin reactions, tummy pain, behavioral issues and sleepless night. How could this be I thought! We started working with an expensive Biomedical Doctor who guided us thorough the minefield that is food sensitivity, intolerances and food allergies. We used expensive unnatural supplements to build up what his body was lacking, I am grateful for all they did but this was an expensive way to mask the problem without finding the cause. I had been a vegetarian since I was 8 years old and always believed I had a good healthy balanced diet. The more knowledge I come upon and studied the more I realised that my diet was processed grains, dairy and refined soy and far too much sugar all watered down with wine. It’s my conclusion that because I didn’t look after myself over the years with too much alcohol, recreational drugs, sugar and a poor diet and lack of sleep and over working, un resolved trauma and emotions backed up….also as a child I had many conditions I didn’t know about, plus generational health issues that have built up, and heavy toxins and heavy metals in the family generations back from both our parents, plus our vaccinations in childhood…it all added up to why William was born with Autism….that is why true cellular detoxification is needed to rewrite the generations of toxins. Then drugs at the birth and a stressful birth causing vagus nerve damage too. And vaccinating him on top of all that pushed his immune system over the edge. I tried to change my diet whilst pregnant with my second child Edward, but I had a tough pregnancy falling pregnant only 7 months after giving birth to William.  I was very unwell, deficient and so tired from dealing with William’s aggressive 3-4 hour meltdowns several time a day and all his gut symptoms and head to toe rashes. I had endless bouts of gastro and exhaustion and a massive 30 kilos weight gain and cravings that were out of control.  I was chronically fatigued and developed hypothyroidism, kidney and liver issues and lymphatic drainage problems in my legs and a host of food allergies . . . I become allergic to air and isolated and my mind was black. My second son was born early through an emergency Caesarian, and had jaundice and was incubated for 72 hours. Edward was a calm placid baby and we thought we had a neural typical baby. I believe the changes I made stopped Edward from growing with more conditions, but his life went on we soon realised he had food allergies and intolerances too that were making him zone out and sleep a lot and when we took those foods away especially dairy our calm baby woke up! This was the parasites and pathogens dying off and his body detoxing. It pained me for years but I can’t remember Edward’s first year of life and often he sat in shitty nappies as I couldn’t get to him as I was holding William in a meltdown or too exhausted to move. My parents helped a lot as most days I was trying to calm William’s violent aggressive meltdowns or take him to endless therapy sessions. Without my parents and Robin we would not have gotten through that first year of Edwards life. I am eternally grateful for them and all they do and did.

William was diagnosed with High Functioning Autism at 2 years old we still remember our legs going numb…it was not a shock as we knew at 10-11 months, but still to hear your baby will be sick for life and never show us affection and never go to main stream school and that he will see the world differently was so hard to process and we had to grieve for the child we thought we would have and the life we thought we would have. Also the dried that we created this by passing on our trauma and toxins, we didn’t know. So then we knew we had to take more steps to help him to reverse this. I went on a reading spree and absorbed all I could and spent most evenings up late talking to other mothers on line and reading medical journals to see how we could save our child from what everyone told us was a life sentence. We were told he would never feel empathy and not be social and I won’t get close to him. I grieved again like I’d lost the boy I thought I was going to give birth too and all our dreams for him. This was my lowest point of depression and I then went on to have suicidal thoughts again and pure blackness wanting to end my life. I no longer felt anything or saw joy in anything. I tried to be the best friend and mother I could be, but saw little hope and saw no point continuing my life. But we picked ourselves off the floor and we came across The GAPS Diet and after the initial hard Intro stage and changing our mindset about certain “healthy” foods like grains and legumes and my ethical views as a vegetarian, and lots of detox as parasites and yeasts where removed from their bodies . . . we started seeing massive improvements cognitively and behaviourally with both boys. However we plateaued out, finding old symptoms returning and not getting deeper healing that I knew we could achieve. Edward got very acidic on the GAPS diet and his symtoms worsened.  We then moved to a ‘RAW VEGAN LIVING’ foods lifestyle which was more aligned with my views as I had been a vegetarian since I was 8. We also used Homeopathy, herbs and essential oils and started to see there is hope out there again, and my depression started to lift and our food intolerance healed after being on this lifestyle for a while. We had Edward tested for Autism when he was 2, and he came back with Global Development Delay and Learning Difficulties of 19 months which put him at a 11-12 months olds ability whilst being aged 2 years. We had to go through such a hard grieving process thinking will Edward ever talk and say mummy and will William be able to go to school and fit in. Therefore with faith we embarked on a clean living lifestyle and removed all toxins and chemicals from our home and focused on positively being present and distressing our lives, we saw our boys and family blossom. Edward has no longer got any delays and is a cheeky social funny wise emotional boy, who has healed our family and does not stop talking!! Before moving Edward to a RAW VEGAN lifestyle he was very acidic and it was causing his body to leach calcium and minerals and leave him deficient, he also could not tolerate fats and proteins and this lifestyle has corrected that. He is now on par with his age group and thriving at School. We more recently discovered Edward and I have Elhers Danlos Syndrome both since birth. At first when he was delayed walking and talking, we thought is was cerebral palsy or muscular dystrophy, so now we know we use Feldenkrias and physiotherapy and exercise to mange it in us both. And of course raw plant only diets and herbs.

And our darling William has become such a clever, kind, wise, entrepreneur and so thoughtful. Who loves his friends and very social and is so affectionate and loving to all that meet him, especially younger kids, and is learning to fit in to a world that was once hard for him to understand. There are still aspects of life that are challenging for him as he missed out on so much socially when he was unwell. Drama, Ballet, Circus School and Music is healing that along with the more I heal the more he realises. We moved them both to a Waldorf Steiner School and this has seen both boys flourish and thrive amongst their tribe and this beautiful educational system, along with periods of homeschooling too. We find that when we lowered the overall stress on their bodies, the toxins, supported their emotional needs, healed ourselves….the early childhood interventions worked so much more effectively and are not needed now. Both the boys show such strength and passion and I believe more than anything they will do great things and make the world a better place for those around them. We thank them daily for teaching us to slow down and appreciate what we have and inspiring us to become healthy and fit. I am so thankful for our struggles as a family. We recently discovered both William and I have PDA Autism ‘Pathological Demand Avoidance’…or pathological drive for autonomy i.e a nervous system disability were demands cause threats and we must equalise or we shut down, i.e life long nervous system stress. This was game changer, we were already using choices and a low demand environment. However it helped us both so much to truly understand.

I’ve healed from my Cushing’s Syndrome, Cancer, Chronic Fatigue and Fibromyalgia. I got very fit and strong from bed ridden, too thriving. Changed my mind and beliefs. I had a few years of really feeling healthy for the first time in my life. The kids were thriving and Robin was healthy, we still had big debt and still challenges in the family dynamic yet we were growing and expanding out from struggle. Then we moved to Byron Bay and life was glorious for a short while. We continued to work on our marriage and family. And individually working to heal trauma and wounds. Then a few challenges arose as we were shedding of things that didn’t serve growth and was built on the facade self. I was hacked and had money stolen when I tried to build my business to fit the social media rules, this led to a huge stress and after a big long water fast to loose weight that wasn’t shifting (because I didn’t know I had Lipeodema since birth). I ended up having a heart attack. This showed my specialist Doctor I had actually had 2 TIA strokes leaving me with white spots on the brain, and had large 16mm hole in my heart that had been there since birth causing the brain damage, explaining why i’d been so sick my whole life, why I have been tired since I can remember. I then had another heart attack. Then followed a heart surgery to seal it up, to prevent further stokes that could do more brain damage, I was living and had lived on 25% oxygen. I was resistant to have the surgery living such natural lifestyle now. Rightly so, I ended up needing to be resuscitated and bleed out from my artery. It took a lot to heal from the anaesthesia as it takes you to just before death. It shot my liver to bits after years of recovering it from my previously poor diet and life choices. This lead to me discovering I had Lipeodema, that I had also had since birth, and EDS as I said since birth, again explaining my physical struggles even on a raw diet and fasting, why I wasn’t loosing weight as fast as most did, why I would fast for 40 days or 95 days on juice only and lot loose weight on my legs or arms. The surgery and strokes put me from a stage 1 presentation to stage 3! This was a shock… as i’d been getting healthier and healthier and I felt back to worst that square 1. With my EDS and Lipoepdema and secondly Lympheodema. I was bed ridden again and walking with sticks as my hips were dislocated. Then Covid hit the world, lockdowns…trying to hold my community and clients and homeschool… I couldn’t get to the treatments I needed. Battling to cross borders and get in to hospitals unmasked. Knowing the damage vaccines do full well from the children and even my child hood. I was putting everything I had into campaigning to stop mandatory jabs, trying to save the world which has also been a weakness of mine till recently. Then we got hit with the massive Northern rivers floods in March 2022. The mould in our house was extreme it made us all sick. Landslides either side, the roads washed away not contact. It was a war zone. Extreme stress. I was once again suicidal. Then the Cancer returned, no surprise. How was I here again with how we live and all I’ve done I thought!! Hitting rock bottom…again! I started to pray. Till then my spiritual belief was very metaphysical and new age spiirtual. The answer I got was do I want to be alive. I released i’d spent my life wanting to be dead, wishing I had another body, hating my body, wishing I wasn’t me…I thought hard. I had a wave of emotions and said out to God… YES I do want to live!! From that moment I have been fighting again to return my health to what it was and I have faith even better. I knew our cells respond to what we tell them and I was telling them I wasn’t worthy and didn’t want to be here, thus the cancer and all my physical symptoms were just all my emotions that needed to be felt to remove the physical for good this time. I’m now strong enough to exercise daily to keep my journey to health improving and to continue to loose toxic fat that I have had all my life, that worsen again. I’m healing from the mould toxicity well my liver was recovered again through herbs and a raw diet. My food allergies, intolerances, Histamine MCAS intolerances are all gone, my eczema has healed and depression gone, I want to be here and it’s been 1 half years since I thought about suicide, I feel FREE! I have a relationship with God now. Faith. I no longer feel alone. My mindset is the best it has ever been in my life! I am truly happy in myself and l am learning to love my body more and more (even though I’m 30 kilos overweight with Lipeodema fat) and love life to the fullest with full acceptance of where I am at and where I have come from. This was through Divine Truths teachings, prayer, therapies, breath, mediation, mindful living, Soul Focused Psychotherapy, somatic work, The Journey Work, daily spiritual practices, boundaries, truth speaking, humility, Qigong, childOsophy and The Landmark Forum, Energy Codes, Divine Love- all techniques I can help you with and more!

Back at the beginning of this journey, a woman I met only once said this happens to those who are strong enough to cope and it is a blessing. I wanted to hit her and scream ‘why is my child’s pain a blessing’ I clearly see now how without this we would not have learnt to live in a higher vibration and not been gifted such lessons from our children. Our children mirror all our unmet needs, all our denied emotions and all out trauma. The worst they were the more I had to go with to heal us all. We have found ourselves through this process and found true like minded friends on this path too. Although we still keep working on our own health and personal issues we have as we evolve, we are the happiest, healthiest and free from the chains in our minds than we have ever been.  Robin diagnosis in 2022 has been the catalyst for amazing growth for him and a deeper connection in our Soulmate relationship. We are blessed to be living and blessed to be where we are right now! We now try now what it takes to heal and are building the strongest foundations of health we have ever had. Not just nutrition, nutrition plus mind plus faith plus releasing emotions, plus getting to know thy self and living from our Soulful self… not the facade self.

This journey has taught our family to be better individuals, better to each other and inspired us to share and help other achieve this too. It has made us change our outlook on life and what is truly important. To cherish our loved ones and live in the present. To love each other unconditionally and ourselves unconditionally. We are more mindful and see happiness in simple things. We celebrate small things and are thankful for what most families see as everyday normal tasks. Whilst all this was going on Robin set up his Consultancy ‘Inspireme’  so he could work flexible hours to be around for the boys and he works closely with disabled and not for profit organisations and giving back to those who helped us. I studied Nutrition and Health coaching at The Institute for Integrative Nutrition (IIN) and Nutritional Science at Endeavour Collage and the first year of Naturopathy and Plant Based Nutrition and Natural Hygiene at Vibrant Health & Wealth Academy, as a Herbalist and Australian School for Herbalism. I trained as a mindset coach using Mediation and Mindfulness Diplomas, Theta Healing, EFT, Aromatherapy, Mickel Therapy and Soul Focused Psychotherapy and as a chidOsophy Practitioner and as an Energy Codes Practitioner. I continue to improve my skills with energy and emotional release training, advanced Theta healing, life coaching courses and advanced herbalist courses and continually expanding my skills daily as I work on myself. I set up my health and lifestyle coaching business, ‘Nourish To Health’ as I wanted to share my knowledge that our journey has taught me and to help others see there is an alternative to numbing your pain and taking medications, and that your child is more than there symptoms. That through the correct human diet and lifestyle you can get your children back and unlock them from their chains that is Autism or disease, and from the view they will not achieve their potential or be bound by their diagnoses. But most importantly support all you amazing mothers and fathers who battle each day a battle that most don’t see . . . I see you and love you! To help you look after yourselves so you can look after these beautiful children. To help you see you can live the life you wanted and dreamed off. Thank you for those who have read this. My story may not be a tough as yours and if so I see your struggle keep going we all have the potential to heal and change, or my journey may inspire you to see you can overcome your challenges too.